Wednesday, October 17, 2007

change

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was

I found my way around
To forgiving you
Some time ago
But I never got to tell you so

I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was

When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend
It was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you

I reckon it's a funny thing
I figured out I can sing
Now I'm not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
I'm not who I was

I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know I am not the same
But I never did forget your name
Hello

Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
-Brandon Heath

I'm so glad I'm not who I once was. Have you ever looked back at a past relationship or a past friendship and felt super embarassed at the way you acted? Maybe you acted out of pain. Maybe it was deffensivism. Maybe it was bitterness, anger, frustration, or jealousy... You know that Relient K song, "Who I am hates who I've been"? that's my song... He's a big God, he makes us new.
Praise Him. Praise Him. Praise Him.

1 comment:

Deanna said...

Wow... can I just say I love you! That was awesome! Thank God that He doesn't leave us where we were, and even when we are not strong enough to walk, He will carry us, and we will be further from what we once were! :) I am right there with ya sister! Same page, same paragraph! ;)